Cursed Night／森カリオペ

The days are blending together

Pretending like I don’t notice

Drowning in mental fog so thick my hands might close where my throat is.

Not gonna rap that “I’m cursed”

My words got heavy

And sure enough the steady ebb-and-flow of life subsided, but I wasn’t ready

Last night, I thought up a song

But I’m too wired to hum it

Inspired sight, like tunnel-vision on the life I got from it

Not tired yet, right? Hah.

“It’s fun,” I’ll tell ya that much.

Adventures oughta be remembered as such.

But, I’m not well.

Not today, not tomorrow

These souls inside my pocket are just sanity I borrow

“Sayonara” to the sorrow of eternity alone? Ya, right.

Part of the joke is that it’s all that I’ve known

It’s justified— can’t help that I romanticize your concern

Now I can fantasize forever if you never say the words “Goodbye”

This tainted mind-set really must go free

Finding someone so fuckin’ wonderful when I’m just so… “me.”

Searching by city light,

You’ll never find me.

Running through a cursed night

“Do you have a death wish?”

Shut the lid tight, it’s complicated

Could ya not look inside, it’s complicated.

Somehow, I’m just a page in, but I’ve cried and I’ve grown

to shut away the conversation of my “highs-and-lows”

自分の目で見えたいの？

この絶望の美しさ

Laid back in the cracks of my past, it’s kinda funny

Got sick of the tricking myself into thinking that others would

only run from me because, as you know, I’m Death— You heard about me?

I’m kinda famous, now it’s awkward…

But welcome to my constant state of mind

Like, could you knock first?

話せない言葉

みんなの心配ごとは耳につながらない

Why’s it every time your kindness is making my chest unbearably tight?

But, not for the first time

A terrible night for a curse,

but don’t you worry, cuz it hurts fine.

Drunk, lost, CalliP

Wandering Rengoku-shi

Enlighten me— is this what they call a “sunk cost fallacy?”

Frightening, in spite of things I want tossed my way

I’m looking everywhere at once and months are passing like days.

“By myself” is just better. I know I say that a lot

But if somebody holds you back, then you cannot become god.

Lost in the night, 情けない Hostile, hostage or free

These childish eyes will only show my mind what I wanna see.

Searching by city light,

You’ll never find me.

Running through a cursed night

“Do you have a death wish?”

Shut the lid tight, it’s complicated

Could ya not look inside, it’s complicated.

Somehow, I’m just a page in, but I’ve cried and I’ve grown

To shut away the conversation of my “highs-and-lows”

自分の目で見えたいの？

この絶望の美しさ

自分の目で見えたいの？

この絶望。。。

自分の目で見えたいの？

wanna see it?

fine, this time, look for yourself.